Find out the "I"

 When I was old enough to understand myself, I always thought that I will be different,I won't do what others do,I won't dress like others do,I won't behave like others do...I would stand out,with my thoughts,behavior and actions...I would set an example...I would do what I want to do and not follow others blindly....but alas,this dream always remained unfulfilled

In a few years I realized that I was exactly doing the same thing as thousands and lakhs of others are doing...where was my individuality?why was my dream of being different suppressed?

It's easy to blame situations,circumstances and people...but no these are not the real reasons...the real hindrance to being "me" is me myself. We are always afraid to flow against the tide...we are scared that if we ought to be different we will be thrown out of the race by others....what is the race about? the race for everything...eating well,looking good,working in a big company,marrying the right person,exceeding in life....this is what matters in life...if you are different,people laugh at you,they mock you.

Thats why we live in a world where eberybody is like somebody and nobody is different...we all have same dreams,same ambitions,same mindset.We won't hesitate to cut each other's throat to topple the opponent and move forward.

Everybody wants to dress to kill,everybody wants the high profile job,everybody wants to show off and flaunt their extravagant lifestyle.OK fine,there's no harm in competition...a healthy competition always ensures better results...but today is the competition healthy?? It's anything but healthy.Everyone wants to undermine the other person. Some people think that u r too ahead of them and hence they will start behaving indiferently towards you and you will be left guessing as to what went wrong between the two of you,and some people think that they are far ahead of you...in that case too they behave indifferently just to show that they have what you don't,they can do what you can't and they will handle the relationship with you acording to their whims and fancies just because they have something which you don't like better financial condition,better status in society or even a better home/car!

Is this what we call friendship? yes...in this fake world this is what  friendship is all about. I need not go beyond  my life to make my point understandable....I love cooking and I post my pics in the social site....this simple hobby of mine has got serious implications in few people's mind like :

1. She wants to show off that she eats well even if she is states

2. She wants to show off that only she can cook and rest all of us are fools

3. She wants to show off as if she is the only loving and caring wife in the world

Few others think in this way:

1. Oh she's on H4,sits at home the whole day,nothing better to do

2. She's just a housewife happy with the thought that she cooks well

3. She's a fool doing all nonsense stuff

Well,after analyzing all these,I once thought I will stop posting pics. But on 2nd thoughts I realized,why should I change myself based on perceptions of others? If they can think what they want, why can't I do what I want? And thus,though in a very triffle matter,yet I tried not to get influenced by others and maintain my own individuality.And from this, I have made one more conclusion that from now on,no matter what, I will do what I want to do and not what others do or expect me to do in every sphere of life!!