Adipose overdose: Few confessions ;)

"You are not fat,you are healthy"....Haven't we (people who are on the higher side in terms of weight) often heard this phrase from our loving moms or friends who never wanted to answer the question,"Am I fat"? Though heart in heart we,or rather I always know that I am much more than healthy. Right from childhood I have never been so conscious about how I look. Though with time, I understood more about fashion and dress sense,yet till now I can't call myself an impeccable dresser.Well,that's another story. But in midst of growing up,finishing B.Tech or managing office, I never noticed that the byproduct of modernization,fast food is making me bulkier by the day. The passion of rising higher professionally was so into me that I never noticed that adipose tissues were making their home in my body and by the time I realized,I guess it was too late!! I went to glitzy malls but couldn't buy that shimmering top which I loved in the first sight,I went to beach but couldn't roam around in shorts, I went to parties but coudn't wear that little black dress..why?? Because I am overweight. And so trendy tops made ways for kurtis and shorts made ways for capris...And the realization dawned that something needs to be done and fast..time is running out.I saw sultry damsels in hour glass figures wherever I went...in office,at malls,in my paying guest house...and I used to think why God had to make me fat out of so many people around me...This thinking would directly take me to my genetics class and I would happily pass on all blames to my maternal genes (as people on my paternal side are all slim and trim). How I wished that I could mutate that gene and change my appearance. And then oneday desparation gave in and I went to a very posh high profile gym. Oh yes I need to lose weight!! But as expected managing a hectic job role and then landing straight at gym took its toll and my gym days got numbered..Here I was again back to square one. Days passed into months and months into years. But nothing has changed.Now I don't have that hectic job,I don't need to run here and there for a gym but have I changed? The answer is no..sometimes I am high with motivation and the other moment I am back to being my self..and oh yes I forgot to mention that ever since I am in USA, I have made myself available to mouthwatering pizza,burgers and loads of soda!!
Hopefully my motivation will win over my weaknesses oneday and I shall be a changed person both physically & mentally !!!

Dreamz unlimited

Sometimes I wonder if one life is enough for all of us to achieve whatever we have dreamt or we dream of achieving everyday. Yes true,people say that if there is a will,there is way..but is true always? At least I don't feel so. We all have limitations and sometimes we get bound by them..we feel like helpless birds whose wings have been cut and are unable to fly. And then we try to find solace in the monotony of the ongoing events of life and our hearts believe that not all things are attainable,not all dreams are achievable.And then again we see new dreams,we think of materializing them. This vicious cycle goes on and on and one day our life ends hopping on and off between  the possibilities and impossiblities.
I wanted to do so many things in life: I wanted to study further,wanted to continue my dance,wanted to do my bit in social service,wanted to write,wanted to climb up the corporate ladder and what not. Well I don't say that I couldn't do anything,but all in bits and pieces. Sometimes I couldn't do due to my lack of focus,while some other times it was circumstances which forced to act otherwise.And when i sit thinking about them, about missed opportunities,about lack of time to pursue my interests,about situations which did not allow me to follow my dreams,again a ray of hope gleams into my eyes which says that the battle is not lost yet...I can do all the things which I ever wanted or dreamt of but may be I need to wait for the right moment and proper timing.And only this mere thought brings back my lost smile....Only time will tell if my dreams will materialize or I too,like others will get entangled in the vicious cycle of might and might not!!